santidevi

Soaking in hot water and rosemary, my mermaid self disappears beneath the water and I am once again my aquatic self. It is the sixth day of a seven day fast.  As always it is though I am waking from sleep, aware of the cessation of time, lightness of Being.  Listening to the hush move [...]

i bow deeply, breathe slowly into the quiet of my stilled mind.
the mantra forms in my belly, an embryo of it’s own making.
dissolving once again and the soil beneath me slips away.
tethered  to this world only by the beat of my heart.
i am scraped clean, and splayed into the freedom of nothingness.
the gypsy north wind [...]

A student of mine yesterday told me that whenever she thinks of me, in her mind, my name is Faith.  How perfect, that in someone else’s internal world I am synonymous with faith! This is exactly what has returned to my patient and awaiting heart, faith. It was as if the Gods were confirming that [...]

Longing to be touched, to feel the warmth of a sleeping body next to me.  Breathing the scent of human skin. The intimacy and comfort of naked bodies entwined. My heart sings to the one who has yet to appear.  I am finding in this great emptiness within me, what it is I truly want.  To be loved.  To [...]

I am mute.  I walk the tight rope.
My savings becomes nearly obsolete.  No work.  I head to Orvis.  It is refuge for my soul. Surrounded by the San Juans I find my breath.  I float on my back as cold rain falls.  A holy baptism. I dive under the water with darkening skies overhead.  I [...]