santidevi

i bow deeply, breathe slowly into the quiet of my stilled mind.
the mantra forms in my belly, an embryo of it’s own making.
dissolving once again and the soil beneath me slips away.
tethered  to this world only by the beat of my heart.
i am scraped clean, and splayed into the freedom of nothingness.
the gypsy north wind [...]

Listening to the Silence, to the quiet of my breath, heart beating softly.  My beloved whispers ‘Only Love’ Santidevi, ‘Only Love’.  I have spent the last six months in the alchemy of fire, and I have emerged purified and reborn. What is left is ‘Only Love’, the essence of my existence.  Amor est vitae essentia. [...]

What is truer than love?  There is nothing truer than love, my beloved.  Your your soft lotus feet that carry me across the thread of my longing.  Nothing truer than the caress of you while I sleep in the river of my body, unconscious, and breathing…
There is only you, and you in this little inhale [...]

I sit at my altar surrounded by images of the divine.  My beloved Mother Mary, Our Lady of Guadalupe, Jesus Christ, the primordial Buddha and his consort, Shiva and Kali, Saraswati, Quan Yin, Ganesha. Master guru’s, Paramahamsa Satyananda Saraswati, Swami Niranjanananda, the Sufi Saint Maulana, Shiva Rudra Bala Yogi, Mahavatar Babaji, Thich Nhat Hanh, the [...]