santidevi

The Latin word for the Roman goddess of liberty and freedom is Liberas. She is in fact the inspiration for the statue of liberty, an effigy of the goddess Isis. I remember the trembling I felt in my body when I first laid eyes on her this summer. I was floating down the [...]

A student of mine yesterday told me that whenever she thinks of me, in her mind, my name is Faith.  How perfect, that in someone else’s internal world I am synonymous with faith! This is exactly what has returned to my patient and awaiting heart, faith. It was as if the Gods were confirming that [...]

I begin to find my feet.  Nothing feels entirely familiar at the moment.  I was internal for so long that engaging in the world seems utterly foreign.  It is as though I am here for the first time. The solitude and silence that characterized the duration of my fast, has lent a simplicity [...]

Longing to be touched, to feel the warmth of a sleeping body next to me.  Breathing the scent of human skin. The intimacy and comfort of naked bodies entwined. My heart sings to the one who has yet to appear.  I am finding in this great emptiness within me, what it is I truly want.  To be loved.  To [...]

I am mute.  I walk the tight rope.
My savings becomes nearly obsolete.  No work.  I head to Orvis.  It is refuge for my soul. Surrounded by the San Juans I find my breath.  I float on my back as cold rain falls.  A holy baptism. I dive under the water with darkening skies overhead.  I [...]

Every Moment Grace
 
I write this post with a certain apprehension.  You see this is the third time that I have written “Every Moment Grace.” The prior two entries written on consecutive days were mistakenly erased.  Ironic.  As the words vanished before my eyes I was confident that I would be able to retrieve them.  Alas, [...]