santidevi

I end the fast at 34 days.  I break it in a time honored tradition, with the eating of prasad {blessed food}. It is taken after satsang with Swami Dharmakeerthi, one of my beloved teachers from India. In the moment that I break the fast I observe the ego’s attachment to fulfilling the 40 days. [...]

It is day 14, and my belly rumbles. I feel the gravity of my own weight, and the stillness that suspends me. A paradox. My mind is nebulous. The solidity evaporates.
Not a moment escapes me. The world has gone adrift, continents away from the air I breathe. Strange how even the most familiar objects [...]